belladonna me

2008-01-07T20:44:00.000+08:00

last weekend was such a fulfilling weekend. wasnt working on a sat, so spend the day slacking at home, resting. and all hell's break lose at night. haha. had teh with BP pple (naz, nizam, aishah, nad, ezdi, mat and mas). headed to west coast to view mat's pics from his viet-china trip and lastly to swensens for ice cream. i tell u we were like freaking noisy at all three places laughing our heads of nonsensical jokes and sexual innuendos. god the boys can make something innocent to all so nonsense. and to make things worse, the nt day me and sd went climbing and was being "bimbotics" cos we keep giggling at everything the instructor said due to all the puns. haaaa.

anyway at last me and sd got the level one climbing thingo... hee. niceee. i got pretty scared initially not daring to try to jump. sorry sd. hee. but then things got a bit better slowlyyy... and i conqueredddd. and u guys shld really come and see as there are lil kids climbing like proooo. sooo adorable.. =)))

the weekend ended nicely but someone make me so uber pissed. how could u be so freaking tactless. urgh.
luckily i was high by the end of the day if not... grrrrr...

2008-01-02T23:48:00.000+08:00

i tried logging to blogger yest but it sulk on me. =D.anyway my HAPPY NEW YEAR BEAUTIFUL PPLE!!!

well i spent the new year watching and gushing at "So u think u can dance" winner Benji. god i think he's so hot in the goofiest manner possible. if only someone take me dancing like the way the leads. *geraaaammmmmssssss

ooooo we (me and sd) met Ili and husband on new year's eve and had a fantabulous catch up. always nice to see an old friend. always nice.
so my dearest friends, have a good new ahead and may we all surpass all challenges ahead.

and find me my benjiiiii...=D.

have a fantabulous 2008 =)))) weeeeee

2007-12-30T00:14:00.000+08:00

i just realised that it has been more than a month since my previous entry. hahaha. how lazy can aini get. apparently veryy.. hee..u know sometimes there's so many things to talk about but just aint sure of how to put it into words or to blog about it. and plus after work. i prefer slacking to F.R.I.E.N.D.S till my eyes gave way. hee.
since 7th november 2007

ezdi has been back.
we went to isk bbq at costa sands a day after sd touch down
i got to go at 12okm/hr. woohooo!!
the bp girls had an outing at last last thurs at almajlis (had a super late dinner). havent laughed so hard with them since 6 months ago. haaa. lovesss
i am gg to be transferred to burns/onco soon. verrryyyy sooonnnn. =((

other than that, all is good and fun. ooo getting fatter. heeeee.

2007-12-29T23:37:00.000+08:00

just got backkkkk

had late late lunch with my dearest aiyingggg today.... talk abt everything under the sun. the fact that we have becoming more and more workaholic =D, boys, friends and ever changing environment. i tell you she is like the sweetest la. hee.. always have fun with her (cos she's always my victim of teasing *wink wink*, but i know she loves me)

in all true boon peng style " ahhhhh yinnnggggg" and me many2 months back @ NYDC =))

and the stranger from KL with knee injury. niceee. =D

2007-11-07T23:18:00.000+08:00

i am so "beatened"(if there is ever that word).kinda tiring dah but not too bad. but the ending of the day was great. its always GREAT, FANTABULOUS to catch up with a friend. and it's even better when it's SHAFAAAA. hehehe.. it's been ages since i sat and talk to any of the malay PTs except for Aisyah. miss them like hell la. plus fae is like so freaking far now.

but sorry la shafa u had to wait.

anyway dinner was a simple flare of LJS and loads of side dishes of "updates" ( a more refine word for gossip) haha..i almost forgot how nice it was to have simple dinner and update our life. well we afterall have very2 similar lives since 2 years ago. hahaha. sch, attachments and repeat.

both of us were just talking abt of cos PT stuff and of cos our other dear friends. somehow we are just able to talk nonstop. haha. maybe it's me. then again maybe it's u. nahhh i think it's us, chatterboxes.

but well babe i LOOVVVEEE dinner with u. will have another one soon k, over the weekends la. more time sikit or when fae comes back, together with amal. heeee.

fae, shafa and me outside our women's health exhibition. (hope u still keepour brochures shafa, u will have a much easier time)

and on another note.

FAEEEEEE.... aku miss ko la selengerrrr... cant wait for u to get back. gelare and updates. then off to sydneyyyyyyy. insyaAllah k . =)))))

see fae merajok. tak nak bebualll... hahaha

at bkk international airport. the one we were forced to fly back due to the bombs. stooopidddd....

we werent fighting btw. just happen to capture an "emo" shot"

one of our project days. staying back in school. doing our ever so last minute work with our ever so last minute kakis and snapping pictures. cant remember what;s the tape measure for though. haha. i miss u la babe.

and this is a pic of almost all the malay PTs when me and fae were year 3s minus far, khalijah.

top: amal, me, audi

bottom: fath, fae, shafa, aisyah, dayah

raya 2006

missing that lanky girl

2007-10-26T02:24:00.000+08:00

i have only been working for 4 months but i have been blessed with good colleagues. but sad to say some of them are leaving the ward. kinda bitter sweet in a way. some left for studies, one is leaving the country and one just needed a break from work. so in a month we had 2 farewell dinners. one held at breeks, 2 days before raya. and another was just a few hours ago for antony.

my male SNs in 76 without naz @ breeks

antony will be leaving in a couple of hours for his hometown. when i got to know it was very bitter sweet. i love working with him. it has been so great. my "sayang" in the ward. haha. well it was fortunate that i manage to know him better before he left. but it's sad knowing that i cant see an antony in the ward when i get to work. it will never be the same.

we'll be missing u man bro. take care ya. focus on what u want and u'll get there. have us in ur memories. =))) it was a privilege working with you. may u achieve only the best in life.

ANDDDDD not forgetting my supposed lookalike shima

and shima dear, i have been missing too man. no more crazy SN with that wacky laughter smile with u know what spilling all over my face. hahaha... we'll catch up soon k.

away from great pple =((

2007-10-26T01:36:00.000+08:00

heyy 2 more days before BP's jln raya. hope it will be as great as any other year. =))

well i havent been updating my blog for the longest time. haha. just cos i dont feel like it. but a lot has been going on. rayawith family. raya with silat peeps, friends leaving my workplace, shopping trips with colleagues. god u cant imagine. so well lets start with raya stuff first. hee..

raya has been very good this year. seeing my grandma again. well though she cant recognise any of us anymore, it's just nice to see her physically well.

Me: nenek, what's ur name?

Nenek: pansy seow.

that's her chinese name before she became fauziah abdullah. she then start telling old old stories. something that i dont get. heee

that's my beloved grandma...=)))

the cina looking cousins and mums and dads

well then last sunday meet up with my beloved silat peeps for an outing. joined them late though. haha. but well it was a good one. havent seen some of them for quite some time.=))

and we ended the day with "berita baik" from kak aida. CONGRATSSSSS !!!!!

at kak aida's place

i find this pic hilarious.i was argueing with yazid for nothing in particular with hykel as an audience and izzy was holding on to yat's ...... hehe

well as u said az, snap shots are fun. heeee

2007-10-03T21:52:00.000+08:00

a friend once said (well she typed, i read), friendships are like china, once broken, however hard u try to put it back to pieces, the cracks will evidently still be there. sad thing huh.
so many things to say but cant seem to put it into words.

we'll leave it as that then. lesson learnt. friendships= china-like fragility and it's not as durable as i thought it was. learn to foresee. learn to listen. no use crying over spilled milk. but 17years.....

i pray that it will back to where it was... happy and not guarded

~addicted to jason.....
she was the girl with the broader shoulders... she's taller than i am ~

2007-09-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

this is like a week too late but i have been so shagged and lack of sleep these days that today is my only free and not tiring day =)))

exactly a week ago, he bp gang with great collaboration from shah, mat and naz, had our iftar at amirah's grill. superb company. freaking funny jokes and disgusting ones. well what do u expect, we have the most lovable but disgusting grp of guys plus mat. hahahaha. but nevertheless, great times.

after breaking fast, we ended up in geylang. without first getting lost of cos. OMG i tell u i cant believe 10 adults getting lost in Singapore. well i guess we are too slenge for our own good. upon reaching geylang, we helped aishah hunt for her baju "beg plastic". haha. and it was fun bargaining for her. all of us joined hands to do so. well with that done. we decided to go town and lepak for a while at Mac while waiting for Nizam to sent all of us back.

this pic below does not show justice to how cramped we all were in nizams van. 9 full grown adults in that tiny space. hahaha... but i tell u, with the BP gang, even the most uncomfortable situation can become the most enjoyable one. with mat and mad doing the BP cheer and stuff. goodness.

this is the incomplete gang with aisha, naz, nizam, mad and pul paying the bill. nevertheless. we had great fun. and ms ezdiyani zulfifli who's in Gibbsland right now, you have been very very much MISSED by ALL of us. wished we could airmail u over to Singapore. well we'll be waiting for u to lepak with us sooooonnnnn......

no one could be richer than this. =)

2007-09-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

happy fasting my fellow muslimssss...=)))

well met up with the two crazy girls to break fast together. n i was like an hour late. opps. sorry babesss got caught up at work. but i had fun..=))) crazy laughter and facts from rozie's science class... heeee
desert indulgence at gelareee =)))

and he's got it!!! weeeee....

2007-09-02T20:33:00.000+08:00

yati's engaged!!!!! heeee.. the girl whom i used to share silly secrets with in secondary sch. god i miss those times. we even write letters to each other to update each other. and the terms we use... OMG i tell u we were sooooo super kental. hahahaha. she is the one whom u can entrust ur secrets with and she will stick by u when u need her. well although we have led separate lives post secpndary sch, i still love her no matter what.

And yesterday she got engaged to her 4 years beau, ady. awwww i am sooo happy for her... well may u have a blessed engagement and future weddings. plus her engagement was also a chance for me to meet some of the girls whom i only get to meet once a year like ili and haj. hee.. those whom u rarely meet but once when we meet, there wasnt any awkward silence. loveeee....

mati2 nak squeeze pat tepi katil. haha

look at the spread

2007-08-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

browniesssss... weeee....

i rushed back home today asap after a long day at work to bake some brownies for tmr... well i hope my brownies will turn out ok. hee.. well i attended a talk at work today and it;s so nice to see a lot of familiar faces... all my previous lecturers and CEs are now fellow colleaguess.. and plus seeing some of my batch was a great great thing as well esp wernnn... havent see her for like forever...

anyway this past 2 days i was so shagged. i have no idea why. monday was just dinner and tues was straight home from work. maybe it;s some accummulated fatigue. monday's dinner was not bad. but sometimes i wonder how much of the past i want to know. had that discussion with sd once but didnt reallie end with a conclusion. but one thing's for sure. sometimes ignorance is reallieee bliss. god the feeling i get. unexplainable. my heart kinda just dank down low.

and can u pls not be that stubborn. it doesnt kill to be a lil recetive u know.. between the angel and devil huh?? can 2 different worlds collide? will u reallie be able to press that reset button earlier???

ooo btw aishah got to the starlite finallsss!!!! i am gg to see her perform this fri!!! so exciting
and yati's getting ENGAGED!!! happy2 newssss weeeee... and sd is gg to get a great treat over the weekendssss... enjoy babyyyy ...

2007-08-19T13:16:00.000+08:00

i have been thinking abt many things these few days.. i realise that we are constantly faced with insecurities. be it at work, at home, in friendships, in relationships. everywhere.... once upon a time i was so secure with where i stand in life that maybe just maybe i became too complacent in maintaining it. but well we are all human. to ere is us. from what i have learnt, there must always be a plan B, u must learn to move on. and nothing is permanent. things change, circumstances change, pple change. if it stays in status quo, good. if not, try to amend it. if all fail, move on. it's always nice to have pple reassure u but sometimes if that reassurance is not reflected in any actions, words will just be words..... there are many things which u try so hard to hold on to but the tighter you grip, the harder u try, it will still slip away.....

well since i have been so serious doing some life reflection (ya right), i thank god that khad and rozie asked me out for lunch yest. i hate staying at home on my saturday off.. haha.. as usual, we met at JP, had lunch at swensens with me adding some extra spices of the day by gushing.. hahaha sorry girlssss.. i will stop it soon... hahahaha... o swensen has a new menu btw but nothing super great la....

after a long lunch, we watched rush hour 3, freaking funny... unexpected lines n scenes... good laugh, man... walked for a bit before rozie had to leave for grannie's plc. but i persuaded khad to shop with me.. hehehe. and end up buyinh like 3 tops.tsk tsk tsk. but one cost only 8 bucks. cheap kannnnn.... then chilled for awhile at coffee bean cos we were dead tired. but i had fun. reallie did.. smileeeee

this pic was taken eons ago but i didnt get a chance to post it. so there... do we look alike?? pple have been saying we do... remember that scary incident at NUS during the bahas 4pm camp in jc?? hahaha

one of my finds at JP.. nice kannnnnn... i loveeee...

ANDDDD the best thing was that when i reach homeeee i saw this!!! DUNKIN' in the refrigerator. my parents were back from johor and bought for me donutssss.. weeeeee... aini's a happy camper.....!!!!!!

well it doesnt reallie look good in the boxes but well I LOVE IT! and that's all that matters... hehehehe... thk u mak!!!

~sometimes the reassurance is all just not that reassuring at all... breathe, and then just let it go aini. i will be found.....soon enough~

2007-08-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

i was just chatting with sd moments ago. and she was saying that it's amazing how the lil things done can be so... significant esp when he/she is someone u are attracted to. hahaha. n i totally agreed of course. have u ever get irritated by someone who keep asking u what u are doing or how was ur day esp when u are not interested. i mean once is nice. twice is ok. when it gets too often, haizzzz... BUT then again i am guilty of that toooo. OMG! hahaha. that's life. u always say it but rarely reflect it on urself. and when u do, we just smacks our head, and sighhhhh.....

anyway i was on my way home today n i saw this elderly couple holding hands and walking. i was like awwwwwwww...so sweettt. sometimes i always wonder if i will have that in time to come....

~the boy's gg away soonnnn~

2007-08-14T20:20:00.000+08:00

yesterday's dinner was nice. not bad. in fact it was kinda comfy. =) but i think it all so cute the fact that someone thinks that since one can either be right-handed or left-handed, it applies the same to hearing. heee.

work has been great so far. and we have a new colleague joining us yesterday. so she will be taking my place n i'll be shifting to another ward. a lil bittersweet i would say. i was just getting accustomed to my nurses antics and was just getting to know them better. but well, a new ward, new experience thus hopefully a better Aini =)) so anthony, dont have to miss me that much. i'll go visit you ya.... hehe... but the nurses has been great. *smile* ALL OF THEM

sometimes when u invade to the imaginary line between two, and the one didnt budge. it reflects some sort of "something". i guess... that light touch, that light brush equates to a jolt of electricity which tingling sensation last all night till today. chemistry into play.

~let me calm that storm
let me give u rest~

2007-08-12T15:07:00.000+08:00

4th time is not the new charm after all huh. god we reallie need to work something out boy... haha. anyway me and imran worked double fast yesterday and manage to finish ON TIME on a SATURDAY! weee... u see, saturday can be very very busy for us. so we always end quite late. but we did it yesterday with the help of faizal and takkee... thank you. =))

after work, i headed to AMK for my cousin's wedding ceremony. its always nice to have such function where families get together and seeing all my young nieces, nephews, cousins running ard, uncles and aunties in the kitchen working and making jokes... but it was so damn tiring.

they are all grown up already.... my boyssss

the pineapples are meant to be mics and the "saring2" are meant to be lightings. hahahaha. hilarious pple at the kitchen....

~come on boy, make it happen for once~

2007-08-06T21:25:00.000+08:00

once in awhile my family do come together for some "happy2" family talk especially when my big bro is ard. he's one hell of a story teller. alwaysssss making us laugh with his antics. well i think he's quite a catch mannn.. abg i want some teddy osooooo...... hahahaha =DD. i love those moments....

well last saturday, after 2 months post IVP 2007, the nyp silat team once again met up at Amirah's grill at BUssorah St for a well deserved dinner celebration plus fun n games. present there was a mixed of new and old pesilats. honestly i felt sooo out of place initially ( i shld have remembered shammie n dragged him along, darn) cos i hardly know the freshies. so i stick to all the familiar faces. one of them is my dear AINNNNN.. hehehe... but halfway thru, it went quite well and havoc began when we all start to karaoke... GEREKKK.... with all those fun gg on. we do still have time to camwhore as usual.... =))))

duetsss

boys getting crazzyyyy with self imagined guitarssss

and plus i was taken by suprise with the token from the team. thank you again to all of u. the three years had been the greatest for me. friendships formed that i will definitely cherish..=))
god no word can express what i went thru for the three yearsss... maybe i dedicate the nt entry to the team. those who have impacted my involvements in silat

the two of them who DID impact a whole lot are my two coaches

abg nana " who the champions???" hahahaha classic line man... freaking funnyyyy

kak aida: my loveeee..

rose among the thorns of the award recipients heeee

the ladiessssss

the whole teammm...

congratulations to the organizing commitee for a job well done..=)

"c'mon, make me interested..." hahahaha. u do suprise me sometimes u know.

2007-08-04T00:09:00.000+08:00

today was a hell of a hectic day at work. but well all was good nevertheless... poon's last day today n imran went a lil bonkers in the morning trying to be superman. hahaha. hilarious. but well poon-y i am so gonna miss u. the PT who never fail to smile, laugh when i lost my hp (which as hidden by imran as a prank. grrrr) and calls everyone "aunty". =D i had ablast with u though it was only for a short while. all the best in Aust. and u can count on us to go visit u there soon man...heeee....

she who laughs

he who went BONKERS early in the morning

we who had fun....

he who looks soooo boy-boy with super short hair cut.

a friend did say,"maybe the 4th time is the new charm?"

2007-07-30T20:33:00.000+08:00

another monday has past. n today aisha baby left me to go to krabi islanddddd..... can u like bring me tooooo...????? i hope she has a blast there though. go do what u listed the night before ya. n dont worry, that boy isnt the only one who'll miss you. i WILL TOOOOO..... heee. be safe there ya. have a safe trip to and fro. *smile*

and krabi actually reminded me of the trip that i had with fae last jan. (not trip la, more like clinical attachments) but i tell you, we were sooo planning to do a lot of things man. but well it was cut short. from a planned 5 weeks to 5 days due to the bombings.it was just never meant to be. haizzzz.....

and i tell u. we werent exactly happy abt it. look at our faces....

but well we'll go there again one day ya faeee.... missing u babe. (she left me for aussieeeee......hahaha) i will go bug u in jan.... hahaha. save a place for me in that pretty room of yours ya.....hehehee..

that caught me offguard. i didnt know what to do.

~weren't i adored?~

if i walked out on u, would u walk after me?

2007-07-29T14:09:00.000+08:00

heyyyy happy peopleeee

i know i know it has been a lonnnggg time. but work has kept me tired and plus i just dont have the mood to blog. hahaha =D work has been great though. working with geriatrics and elderly are fun cos there are soooo cute i tell u. hahaha.. plus it doesnt hurt to have something (or rather someone) to look forward to everyday u see. hehe..

this month has been quite a ride for me. and honestly, it could never been worst. so i hope as sd says, it could only get better. i miss sddddd..... she's away till dec. but i tell u she's having the greastest time in Aust: skiing, shopping, partyyyyy... hahahaha. and above all that, she was sent roses all the way from home. how sweet can it get right? i am so the very jeolous. hahaha. n boy she's a smittened kitten. hehehehe *wink wink*. idont mind sharing u sd, reallieee. =))

well i havent been running for like the longest time. ever since ivp ended. haa. my stamina will sure drop like a whole lot i tell u. well speakingof which. we will have a silat celabration dinner at Amirah's grill this coming saturday. so hurrayyyy =))) i miss them so much. i do. three years in NYP Silat has etched many memories in me. i hope it will never fade thru time. esp those who made me smile and has been there.

~tonight i am entangled in my blanket of clouds, dreaming aloud....
things just dont do without you, matter of fact.. i am on ur back.....~

find me, you

2007-06-01T12:35:00.000+08:00

so much have been goin on in my life now. for one, i am going to be officially a working adult. woah. the responsibility man. goodness. i am having the jitters man. excited, nervous, all of it. reallie. so much to prove. have me in ur prayers pple? and sometimes it helps with an angel watching over u. here i come.

sometimes when u say u are going to do something abt it. make sure u do what u preach. esp to pple who mean a lot to u (or so u thought). i dont like empty promises. if u are not sure of it, dont say it. simple. u misjudged big time.

sha dear, u are stronger than u are. i know. =) hugs

lovekiss

find me, you ~ my life is your guessing game

2007-06-01T12:21:00.000+08:00

i woke up with a freaking aching body la.. must be the blading the day before. haaa. ya ya. well to be honest we didnt even blade for long. and most of us being freaking amateur-ish and all. i think all the ache is due to the fact that we were using the wrong muscles to get ourselves moving and contracting other extra muscles to prevent ourselves from falling. haha. but i had great fun. shah, i am glad u tried =) as vain brain as u are, i am glad u tried. hehe. n perhaps next time u can jog while we blade aye? heeee.

and what's an outing without us eating yet again. took a cab from ecp to city hall for some sushi and some nice good old girl talk. and then we satisfy our desire to shop.. haha.. nah it was more of sd's haha but all of us got good buys. (sha u got ur coin pounch mahhh... hehe)

and for once, we ended the day early, i reached home before 11. well done aini. =) well done girls

find me, you

2007-05-25T02:09:00.000+08:00

just came back from genting-KL trip with rozi and khad.

bus ride.

at ripley's after screaming our hearts out at the haunted house.

chilling before taking the indoor rides.

my fav ride: space shot. i really felt as it my soul was separated from my body as we plunge down fast. i never had a more thrilling ride than that. honestly i still wonder how i went through that. but didnt regret every bit of it.

love this pic at the roller coaster.

baskin robbins

we then heade to KL. normal shopping and eating and chilling.

sometimes when u have to work that hard at trying to make it right, it's just unlike one that i imagined it to be.

2007-05-25T01:23:00.000+08:00

what a holiday man. since this was my last ever sch hols, i was making full use of it. 2 trips back to back. well almost. hahaha. went to tioman last week with the most unexpected strangers whose company i enjoyed very much. shazzy, ramzi, juni and the girl who make it happen for me: FAEEE... i am so glad u asked me along man... reallieeee...=)))))

we met freaking early at 6 am in the moring, had brief intro of each other and off we go...

waited for the ferry at mersing, where all of us turned "kiddy".

shazzy stoning away..... hehe

we have reached tioman!!!!!! clear blue water and white sandy beachessss..weeeeee

our nice kampong style home for 3 daysss.. lovessss

the beach infront of our chalet. love love love

we had a day of island tour the next day. when to explore kampong juara, water fall, snorkelling, and then back home to salanggg =))

snorkelling at pulau rengis and marine oark was fantastic. the marine creatures were sooo pretty. the corals, the different species, sea urchins... haizzzz... gorgeous. but i didnt know i was kinda scared of the sea. the unknown. but i enjoyed it nevertheless. =)

o n have i mentioned we saw dolphins while we toured the island.. love love love.

had an early breakfast the last day at tioman. enjoying the last few hours. tioman had been great great GREAT!

and saying goodbye was harder than i thought. but i never felt so free, so relaxed in a loonnnggg timeeee. had a blast girls. hope u did too.. =)

2007-05-12T18:35:00.000+08:00

was talking to jif and sd yest. i suddenly feel as if i am a having an identity crisis. all of it started with "i think i am a jeolous gf". sometimes we frowned at guys who have jeolous gfs and possessive ones. but hey sometimes i think i might be one. or would i.

sd made a point when she said that the confusion starts we question who we are and who we want ourselves to be. now i staet to question everything. am i a good friend? daughter? student? physio? quarter life crisis. darn. do i reallie need that much attention?? do i do i??? paranoia.

and sometimes it's not that u dont want to give the answers. not that you dont want to be honest. just that somwtimes it's worth just keeping it all in.

2007-05-10T22:27:00.000+08:00

i am so freaking bored now cos no one is entertaining me.. no one is dancing ard like a mad man nor is anyone pulling funny faces to make me laugh. no one to go all "chandler" on me. bluek..

training yesterday has caused me to have DOMS (delayed onset of muscle soreness). faeee massage me plssss... * make a kesian face*

well for what is worth. i had a fantabulous weekend with the pple i love most.. =)) the enthusiastic aisha, who is of course very "tak obvious" =D and aishah had been planning this for the longest time.. i was roped in after my examsss... and trust me we were all freaking giggly and mentels hahahaha... we had biiggggg plans for the bdae babies but one of the dearies happily let it out.. hahaha.. but we had a great laugh. =D

and the day finaallllyyy came.... went for the skyride and luge. i didnt know i was THAT scared of heights esp when it came to a standstill. but the view of the sun setting, the sea and with my dearies on my side and back made it all well... =)) and thank god i was ok after the first ride up. but i loveee the luge.. cheap thrill.. best best..=)))

had dinner at sakae and then cafe by the beach. sharing idealistic views abt the current as well as the future. and yes i agree with sd. they are my comfort zones. all unique in her own ways. we get on each others' nerves sometimes but at the end of the day, we just laugh it off... =)))) thanks for the great time.

the early birds =)))

monorail rideee and silly fun in the room

the BIRTHDAY GIRLSSSS we love you...

playtimeeee =)))

chilling by the beach

shagged... =))

and sd... CONGRATSSSS!!!!! we are so gg to miss uuuu

2007-05-01T01:48:00.000+08:00

lyyes yes i know this is soooo long overdue but there are so many things have been gg on that i hardly have time to update. FYP presentation went on smoothly. well done wernie. had a terrible day before the saturday itself. fae was trying to make me happy by camwhoring but well i wasnt reallie in the mood. there were glinches in the poster. Lucky aisyah (my dearest) got it all fixed by that evening itself

preparing for the big day

these girls make my day (one of the many2 lepak, destress days)

everyone came in their pretty2 chic shirts and all prepared to present our precious lil FYP. the "baby", as bel puts it, which we have been working on for the past year... i was so proud of everyone of us =). we sound so "sound". woo hoo!! and when kelvin gave the closing speech, i went all teary. i never knew i would learn to love the profession and most importantly the people that make the profession. well done graduating class of 06/07. i love u. heeee

Physiotherapists-to-be =)

Vi joined us five for our deserving lunch at Amirah's Grill. loads of girl talk and making fun of grace. hahahaha.

okaysssss so that was fyp. the last hurdle for this batch. EXAMSSSS

but guess what we did A DAY before that? having fun at far's second bro's wedding reception. haaa... had a blast with the girls as usual with wen and grace looking sweet and elegant with the kebayassss =))))

and grace, u asked for it man. u know we were soooo gg to make fun of u once u made that comment on someone. haaaaa... all the best... heeee

us and the newly weds

btw i lost my baby-G watch. i was falling in love with it. and it was barely a day old. =((((

2007-04-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

physically and mentally drained from the never ending assignments, presentations and trainings. skipped training today though. =(

met fae at raffles for occ health presentation. will be meeting the other 3 tmr or rather today.
i made a decision to wait for another year before embarking on another journey. well hopefully it will all be good.

just one more week to go...

~sometimes i think all of that is a facade to chase people away from whom you really are. you are feaful of new attachements as memories still linger. you believed those pictures etched in your heart serve a purpose: hope. and ever so often u hang on to whatever tiny hope you can hold on to. me? i am just numbed.~

2007-04-07T21:29:00.000+08:00

~i love you
grey sweat pants
no make up
so perfect ~

2007-04-07T21:16:00.000+08:00

~the bride and groom~
kak yanti's married..... she's 23 this year. just a year older than me. hee.. well it's always good when we have kenduri or any majlis. at least i like it. reason being: simply cos i get to meet my fav pple. my family..=)) all the nenek sedaras, makciks, my dad's cuzs, my cousons, my cousins sons/ daughters. happiness. some of them became solo for a day. haha. they are hilarious in a mat kental kinda way. haha.

my dearest shammie. *melts*

cousins. all married with kids except for me.

2007-04-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

AND to wrap the weekdaysss is dinner with my darling bp girls at breekssss.... met sd and aisha first to wrap aishah's presee nicely, bought her cake and met mary at breeks marina. service was good there. i like. =). they actually offered to keep the cake and bring it out when aishah came. (siap ngan nyanyi lagik. sweet kan....) heee... the dinner was gOOOOOd. aishah was so embarrassed when the breeks pple came out singging her the bdae song.. haha.. well embrace 22nd babe =).. n we got to thk naz for collaborating with us. n NOT aisha for making it so "not obvious" haha.. well classic aisha syndrome. "jgn obvious jgn obvious" (but her action says otherwise=D) but we still love u babe. n AISHAH darling. hope u liked the dress. well we know u LOVEEEE it. haha.

after dinner just lepaked at marina sq's tangga and eat some more. haha. (kenyang per.. hahaha....) well me and aisha know u all more than that.. haha.. i had so much fun. but then again when was it not fun with u all.. SMILE.

2007-04-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

as if Amirah's grill wasnt enough, had Fig and Olive (Bencoolen) for dinner with shafa darling, amal, fae, and audi. well they seems kinda quiet. me and fae was like yakking away. maybe it was just us la fae. hahaha

my 2 lovely future to be physiosssss

and fae treated us GELARE... yumyum (maner tak gemok aini..=D alah dani kate rezeki mah. maner boleh tolak. heeee)

2007-04-04T11:48:00.000+08:00

well well... been freaking lazy to update on anything cos was just too busyyyy..... had superb "fine dining" with the 4 other ladies after a loooonnnngggggg day in sch. paid a visit to the lion's befriender at AMK for our geri stuff.. me and wen got this cantonese auntie.. so cute.... =)))

we then headed to AMirah's Grill for the awaited dinner to celebrate the birthday girls fae and farhana....the food was just greattttt....and grace got addicted to the kofta... hee... i had so much fun. camwhoring with the girls, grace trying so hard to attempt a lesbian pose with me (long story. hah) hope u girls enjoed urself too. and my dearest FARHANA... thks for the treat... i love u. i love all of u. reallie.. aini mushy aini. haha. well pple, indulge in the photos of friendship and happiness. hahaha

the "pretend we are aattentive in class but not" girls

my "lesbian" partner, classmate, and future colleague. we just cant get enough of each other i tell u. =D

me and far going bonkers. a suicide attempt and boob job gone wrong. hahahaha

2007-04-03T01:44:00.000+08:00

took a break from preparing for hydro presentation tmr.... and guess what i've found???

all taken at Ngee Ann IVP... 2 years back.... the year when kak aida first joined us...=))))

the year when al came back to silat

the last year ed and ipin represented the sch

the year when shammie was our cap.

the year with one of the best memories i ever had......

2007-04-01T18:59:00.000+08:00

amidst all the busy-ness in school and training, i find myself still bothered about the same old thing. it has been years. y?? no one can ever imagined how embarrased i was. but i just pretend. pretending to just get away. hoping that that it will go away as time goes by. apparently it didnt.

~no one can read me like a book.~

2007-04-01T13:19:00.000+08:00

after our women's health exhibition, i went for training. had to run with wawan and aby. then did some seni kicks and basic punches. but training was so hilarious with one of us "kene sampuk" and cramp. and hykel got bullied by 2 of the big guys (wawan and fadh: jahat eh korg =D) it was so fun i tell you.

i was so lucky and thankful to be sent home by the twins' dad. save a lot of time. =)

then did some work and slpt. but getting up was a torture cos i can feel the soreness and lactic acid building up already. goodness. went for training. as usual. training wasnt that hard core today. spent quality time with abg nana. haha... after the usual physical, went up to the judo room and had "counselling session" with coachie on BGR. hahaha.... it went on for abt 15-20 minutes before abg nana realised that we were stalling time cos we were so tired... hahaha... then had training and i can see that the passion is slowly seeping through each and everyone of us.... =)))

o YAYAT CAMEEEEE.... yeay!!!!!

hd kunch with most of them puls yayat and abg nana at tong seng. heee. lepak and chat, me, yat, abg nana and azrie reminised abt the past few years training. good memories they were. =)

had teh with sd later that night. and i met massagoes!!!! my fav bbdc instructor! and he still remember me... hahahaha.... =D

~someone who seems mysteriously quiet but in actual fact a clown. ~

2007-04-01T12:55:00.000+08:00

at looonnnnnggggg last we finished our women's health exhibition....not bad i must say. kudos to everyone.. it's so nice to see the whole cohort working hard together. =)))

my 4 other kakis for 3 years. i so sayang all of u...=)))

nice? heee... n can u see me as a pregnant patient on the laptop....=) one of the lecturers asked whether i was reallie pregnant and my dearest farhana happily said'"o ya she is. shot gun." saje jek..=D

2007-03-29T22:38:00.000+08:00

tmr's our women's health exhibition and guess what the five of us were doing during the 4 hour break?? record some exercises in the class and in the pool that took us like 15 minutes max, and off playing... haha... i havent had so much fun n laughter... cannon ball experts, sea lions wannabes, water going up the sinuses. any stupid game u all could think of, we played them all... hahaha... we are so the last minute gang.... but hey, we finish everything last evening till 7. so i guess today was our reward... hehe... look at the dynamics of our grps and viv's yest cramming
last minute stuff for the exhibition yesterday. well as what minwei puts it, we are the most efficient this way. hahahahaha....=D

i love u alll babessss

*if you at the playgrd now, you would be pulling her hair and pushing her down* -chandler bing

2007-03-27T20:51:00.000+08:00

well well... old habits stick like a leech man... did last minute assigmnent on sunday night all the way to monday morning with 3 hours of sleep in between.. (macam tak biase plak...hee) well but what helps me through was perhaps i dig some articles and books for it already. so not so bad. and i have a good feeling about this assignment. =) (i hope so.. well layyen's marking though... haiz....)

after school today, fae n me decide to grab some half priced gelare waffles at causeway since she had the car today. honey malt crunch on waffles with chocolate syrup and strawberry on thetop..yum yum... sinful man... but heck... haha...

exchanged thoughts on mahluk halus and all.. and fae made a comment. "from what i see, you tend to like guys who are a bit mat-tish? and maybe a bit rempit" i was like "what?! *eyes in disbelief* nooooooo!!!!!! she added that perhaps now i will or are attracted to someone who are different from the usual matss . and that unique characteristic excites me. hah. what a theory fae. i am so NOT buying it. haha...

what encompasses a mat anyway?

what do i look for anyway? heck! i have assignments and presentations to think about. and after that exams. the ivp, then work. busy busy busy....

o btw, we spotted this cute guy in sch.. haha... physically attractive. sharp features, atheletic bod. slightly tanned, tall. but most prob some kanak2 strawberry.. haha... alah eye candy jek per.... hahahaha

i am so gonna miss you n far man........hugssssss

in need of a good massage

2007-03-25T00:49:00.000+08:00

had training as usual this morning. damn my stamina sucks. must work hard aini. 69 more days... arrrrrggggghhhhhh..... anyhu today i saw wawan after a loonnnggggg time. well it's a

always nice to see our fellow athletes coming back. =)

after training, headed back home with soreness all over.

rest for awhile before meeting the girls to go to the dance festival at NUS UCC to support faiz n reeza. congratulations guys. u did well. =)) and guess who we met there??? HANISZA!!!! it has been awhile babe. we miss you so mucccchhhhh...... and sd finally met hanz's azhar. heee. hanz found her match at last. =)

well as usual, we had our dosage of teh (and sate n roti john) at Al-Azhar to wrap everythin up.

i need a massageeeeeeeeeeee...

the ex-bpians (HANZZZZ we miss u!!!!)

my five fav girls of 10 years

i look so tall... haha...

naughty physios

2007-03-23T00:23:00.000+08:00

well we has a 4 hour lecture today on health management. can you imagine? 4 hours..... well half the class was already sleeping by the first hour. the other quarter were whispering and discussing about our future lives which will start 3 months from now. while the other one eighth were doing our own stuff and some very very diligent PT students were listening attentively (as if) haha.but suiling was very cool about it. i personally think that it's a lil too early to teach us abt manegerial admin stuff. it will be about approximately 8-10 years down the road. o well here are some of my lovessss that i will misssssss in 3 months time.....

my fellow ever-so-last minute kakis who always manage to pull through

me and grace-y darling (we are colleaguessss... weee....)

u dont have to say it

2007-03-13T00:36:00.000+08:00

are you having thoughts that you cant get it out of your head?

thoughts are like colours that paint the canvas of your own world. they paint dreams, hope, suspicion, nightmares, disappointment that can be both be a plus point and not. but thought are all within your control. it's an internal control. no one knows what you are thinking of except u. but not so for body language.

it only take a posture or small unnoticed gestures that are unconscious, mediated by pple's thoughts and feelings that can tell a thousand words and paint vivid pictures. the words ppl say, the tone they use. a far more accurate reflection of the uncontrollable new chemical reaction. pple might argue," but hey that's subjective." to a certain extent maybe. but so far, my gut feeling never failed me. i knew somewhere, something new, something worth keeping has caught your eye. and she is just gonna be there..... looking. cps that's all she's capable of.

i am no genius. but i aint stupid.

of slumber party, roti boyan and motherly loveeeeee

2007-03-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

i love girls' talk esp when we have 3 of different generations, my mum, myself and my beloved obek eda .... great life stories to exchange on their part, and lessons to learn on my part. sometimes all these open talks are very2 enriching for us, "anak dara" yang kadang2 nak masuk dapur pun susah. haha. we end up talking about marriages, in-laws, off-springs, ways to please husbands, how to take care of babies, how to 'jaga hati mak mertua'.

marrying someone u love means that u are also marrying into the family.

biarlah mertua kamu into menjadi tempat yang boleh kamu bermanja.

honestly it was time worthwhile spending quality time with two of my fav mums..=))) yeay!! (jadi menantu bukan senang adik. kena pandai jage hati mak mertua, hati suami, masakkan suami, jage rumah, jage anak.....-mum) belom ader calon dah kene advice. haha....

the three of us were in the kitchen this whole morning making "roti boyan". and finally i know how to make it. weeee.. there my masterpieces... my makcik supervise, while the mum and daughter team uli, giling, lipat and goreng.

o btw, had a torturous training last saturday. after so loooonnnnnggggg resting, abg nana make us did the tangga puaka 3 times. and it was not only sprinting up but up and down. lactic acid build up man. as if that wasnt enough. we had to run and sprints. but a job well done by the team. so proud of all of you. then up to the judo room to kick ard and learn techniques and light sparring. =) i misssss all of that. and i misss my "slenge" friend i used to have in training. n of course i miss yayat....

seeing all RED.

2007-03-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

the last week last been busy. assignments after assignments, projects after projects and on top of that fyp. gosh! i dont get it. we are graduating in 3 months time and they are like pushing us ti the edge. but then again, im thankful that i have great friends and team members that i can always count on. weeeeeee.... (and i love layyen. she's so cute and smart. now even cuter with her being pregnant and all...)
boooooooo.........
now my right eye is sore. red and sore due to infection from what else? contact lenses. my first eye infection. urgh. freaking painful la. and the "pimple which i thought was embedded in my subcutaneous" was actually an ULCER on my GUM. and now another is forming at my palate. if i complain to my mum, i bet cha, she'll say," alah panas dalam. minum air banayk2. tu lah asyik makan goreng2 jek." hee

at all time, i know that (in my right mind) that i shouldn't act that way. but it's hard. everyone is made up genetically different. comparing one human being to another is unfair for both. nature, environment all plays apart. someone might have a harsher bring up, but she's resilient as diamond is to blades. while other individuals just need time to adapt. people ask for wealth. people ask for happiness. i ask for comfort. i ask for friendship. i ask for understanding. i ask for patience. i know u girls are trying i'm trying too girls. aisha said, if three of us had the same thought on a situation, most probably the problem lies in me. well... sometimes brutal truth is indeed the best with all the love and friendship that surrounds and entails that truth. i'll be driven by more thoughts than emotions the next time. but in my bro's word "cakap tak serupa bikin!" haha. i'll make it. just be a teeny weeny bit more patient with me can? pleeeeaaaassssseeeeee =))

received photos from sd. photos from the hike with 3 boys. a camwhore, a teacher and the band member. n damn mat's camera. hahahaha...... well had fun though. the hike, the island creamery, the mutton chop, trapped in the rain, missed my meeting, running in the rain. all good. all of it. not particularly all. but almost.

panjat tak sebrape, posing nyer lebih.=D

love the background on my pic with sd. maybe we should do that one day ya. =)

everyone one something that you cant get. so.......

my peter petrelli....

2007-02-26T02:49:00.000+08:00

im in LOVE.... with HEROES... i love that show. finished the season in 3 days. marathon. haha. it's so addictive i tell you reallie... and the paintings... i like. =)

going back through time

2007-02-26T01:10:00.000+08:00

was gg through old pics... i need to get back where i was.

jeng jeng geng

2007-02-21T20:18:00.000+08:00

one gathering after another. honestly i was kinda felt half hearted to meet the gang yesterday. no apparent reason. just that sometimes we dont have a concrete plan so we'll all be "floating" ard. anyways i was running late thus i met honneybunny first before meeting the rest(dil, keem, ilyas, rahman, becks). we headed to magic wok for dinner and waited for the "mat motor's" (syahid, nas, perut, azman).

sharing food always make my appetite hit up a notch and boy did we have loads of foooddddd..... n personally i think looking at the guys eat their hearts out are so cuuutteeee hahahaha (macam selera gitu). =))

maybe it's old age but we just wanted to sit, chill and catch up. =D we hang out at coffee bean at clarke quay remisnicing about the pass and playing "daun terup" (tsk tsk tsk) and hangman. isk joined us towards the end after he got lost. we wrapped things up by scaring each other with passed ghastly experiences.......

didnt know i missed u guys till we met.

jangan mengejarnya

dan jangan mencarinya

dia yang kan menemukanmu di hari yang tepat

.........

tidakkan mawar hampiri kumbang

~find your way out of the maze. find me.~

slumber your night away

2007-02-20T01:47:00.001+08:00

hey hey... what do you know... my very own blog.. ya ya i know a lil too late... well sd suggest that i should have a blog so that they know what's in my head. haha. so i'll try. but sometimes even i dont know.... anyway at least now i can rant away all i want without having anyone gg "gi rilek sua!!" urgh.

had a blast with the girls yesterday. we had a room in Copthorne Orchid to have an advanced celebration of aisha's bdae. was high on endorphines jumping on the beds, falling from the bed, running away from aishah(hee), camwhoring in the room, screaming at nasha aziz, ogling at azhar sulaiman (hai....), stuffing down pizzas and chocs and chips.....and........... dressing up for the night.....

well one of my friends said that, "well it's widening your horizon" haha =D

everyone was so tired... im still aching all over.... n aisha babe, hope u had a blast. memories babe. *wink wink*